June 13th, 2005 (01:40 pm)
current mood: busy
i'm in the office right now. working. LOSER! was supposed to do over time work last saturday pero tinamad ako so here i am right now, fixing my files, replying to emails, making reports. well, i am not the only "loser" here. hehe! pagpasok ko sa door, cel (sagayadan), patty (from ateneo), and claudette (calayag) are also here. well, mas reasonable naman na ngayon mag-overtime kesa last saturday. if you think about it, meron naman talaga dapat pasok today. pasalamat na lang ako kay gloria i can concentrate on my work, without anyone "bothering" me or calling my attention for something "more urgent".
life is not as hectic as before. feeling ko, mindset lang yan. it's because i am learning to work more efficiently. dati, iniisip, kailangan mag-ot every now and then para lang matapos yung mga kailangan gawin. pero still, hindi ko pa rin natatapos. work smarter, not harder they would say. it took me almost a year to learn that. kaya ngayon, i go home early na. actually, nagugulat kahit family ko, whenever i go home early. on that note, may i just share na malapit na ako mag-anniv dito sa bank? this coming july 5. fun nga 'coz it's sweldo day.ö but whenever i think about staying that long in the bank, i would ask myself as well... until how long will i be here? one more year? two more years? God knows for how long. i am not sure if i really want to be here. but i'm hanging on. i don't have problems. it's just that i'm looking for something else. tama bang maghanap pa ko though i know that i am secured with this job? lynn and i would sometimes wish, na sana, hindi na lang mabait yung boss namin. hindi sya considerate, hindi siya understanding. it would be difficult to let go kasi eventually, should we decide to. nakakakonsensya. i am the type of person kasi who values loyalty above many things. let's see na lang siguro if an opportunity arises. last friday, i spoke with rachel. we both agreed that we are still looking for that "aha!" opportunity. haay...
next week (tuesday), i'll go to up. i took a leave so i can get my diploma and enroll for french class. so something to look forward to. my motive to learn frech class? well, i'm planning to take foreign service exam next year. am preparing for it as early as now. malay natin, that's something i'm bound to do pala. become a diplomat that is. dami nagsasabi it's a tough exam. i dunno lang which is more difficult, LAE or foreign service exam. basta, by all means i am preparing for it.